Updates on me~!

Cafeclouds here~~

So i've been driving to school~ its pretty chill i guess. i get to take my time in the morning and stuff >>

Ughhhh, i seriously have SMTOWN withdrawal symptoms guys...its pretty bad... like i get all depressed over it for no reason lol TAT i just keep wishing i could go back in time and be there again. i miss them so much.

Oh my god T___T

Taemin, SHINee, suju...everyone.. 

i know it might just seem like a fandom/obsession/phase to you guys,

but it means so much more to me.

Yeah, i think they're really gorgeous and they sing amazingly and stuff like that, but for me it kind of goes beyond that.

To be honest, they are sometimes the real reason i still wake up in the morning.

I know it might sound weird...but kpop idols ... they are amazing to me.

For now its SHINee and Super Junior that inspire me the most.

They are my inspiration for living and for going on everyday, no matter how hard it is because i know they all work themselves to death and still look amazing on stage.

I can see Taemin's eyebags getting darker everyday and I can hear jonghyun's voice getting more and more strained with every Lucifer performance, but I know they worked so fucking hard to reach their dreams ... and are still working their butts off.

and that inspires me so much.

Did you know Taemin gets bullied in school.

YEah, thats right, 

he's a fucking pop idol, and he juggles working, attending meets, singing on stage at concerts, goes to variety shows, radio shows, photoshoots, a nameless bunch of other CRAP and still has to go to fucking school and to top it off he gets BULLIED.

girls won't ever leave him alone and are always pestering him/stalking him/won't let him get past to go to class....and other kids make fun of him, call him names, and even throw things at him

I want to fucking kill them all and rip their faces off .... but it seriously brings tears to my eyes that he is so strong to keep moving on and still working hard....

I just hope he doesn't like get too affected by the bullying that he's one of those k-celebs who suicide..

omg *knock on wood!!!!*

Just kidding, i know Taemin is a happy little kid and he'll never do that (:

I want to be like them -- strong and successful and happy but hardworking at the same time,

Did you know like 5 members of Super junior almost got killed in a car crash like a couple years ago?

they were on their way back from one of the member's father's FUNERAL. and got in a car crash where they were almost killed.

They all broke a bunch of bones and were hospitalized for a long time.

The other members took care of them and they still kept working hard.

That just breaks my heart that they try so hard all the time and they work together to care for each other and i so wish i could have that so....

They inspire and sometimes are the only reason i even care to keep going on in this life.

And since i met them -- in PERSON in front of me, sweat, blood, flesh, tears, the real deal ;;; everything just hasn't been the same.

I wish i could see them again.

It just means so much to me.

*sigh* I really miss SMTOWN.

I miss Taemin ):

 he was so fucking beautiful and perfect....:/

And this might be kind of like pathetic to you guys...

but when lei broke up with me, i felt like i got over it right away (well not the first day, but after that and on), and i acted like it too, 

but i think i actually had really acute depression and I didn't even know it.

You wanna know who got me out of it and from hurting myself?

Big Bang.

Yeah.

No offense, i'm not saying you guys didn't help me or anything, it's just that you guys didn't even KNOW i was depressed and like emo lol... hell, ::::I::::: didn't even know so its fine ..

but i'm just saying that....

I discovered big bang and they saved me.

so they just all mean a lot to me T__T

For bitches who suck and didn't read/comment on my SMTOWN fan account...better do so now (:

http://pedonoona.blogspot.com/

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OMG THIS SHIT MAKES MY LIFE WORTH LIVING AHHAHAHA SO FUCKING HILARIOUS AND CUTE and FUNNNN!!!!!

http://www.mediafire.com/?tlv3d9339aa5b

Download the SHINee ones on the second page (:

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Ummm i think livejournal totally died, guys lol @_@ Ummm like i think all my lj friends totally went AWOL and MIA O-o Umm so i'm just gonna be posting on here a lot more XD LUCKY FOR YOU guys -- you get all my pointless spam now...even if it has to do with a bunch of kpop crap. i expect you to read it too hahaha :DD BECAUSE YOU ALL LOVE ME, BITCHES.

D:<

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SO I'm applying to Cal State Long Beach on the FIRST DAY OF OCTOBER since thats the day they are staring to accept applications @____@ I hope i get in lol @___@ just a heads up for you guys, you should check the colleges' sites that you might wanna attend and check out the application dates for them before its too late!!! Good luck (: Lets all get into the schools we want~! (:

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MIDORI, DO. NOT. WATCH. TOO. MANY. FANCAMS. OF. SMTOWN.

it will make you forget the feeling of being there faster and then you will get really bad withdrawal lol ~_~

it happened to my friend T__T

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So tell me how was your first and second week of senior year??

Mine was okay i guess...kind of strange..

but i feel like i have so much more freedom of expression...I just act like however i want/do what i want...and i dress/do my hair how i want and i really don't care what people say lol.

I bring around a bookbag to put my binder/books in and i guess it makes me look really asian or something lol but i really don't care.

I just find that i really DO NOT CARE @_@

SENIORITIS IS COMING ALREADY AHAHAHHAHA

I wore my hair all korean today with a little ponytail on top of my head today with a little bow and i THINK IT WAS SUPER CUTE and fuck bitches who didn't like it.

FUCK BITCHES who didnt like my pedonoona shirt too . they can suck my dick.

LOL :D

And all my folders/notebooks/eVERYTHING is pimped out with kpop stuff and i kind of don't give a rat's ass if people think i'm too obsessed/weird either cuz taemin's face everywhere makes me really fucking happy you have no idea<3

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Anything new to look forward to, guys?

WE have Teatime's and Kimlink's birthdays coming up soon and what are we planning for halloween?

We definitely gotta get together for Halloween ((:

Ummmm what else is coming up?? >>;;

Any other big events? 

I feel like so pointless after SMTOWN like i have no other big exciting things to look forward to T^T

I will try to think of more things lol ... to keep me going ~ and not give up on school lol @_@

I need to sleep now...its 9:30PM lol. i wake up at 5:20AM though so i gotta sleep now if i wanna be able to wake up tomorrow ><

I need Teatime to finish her post!! THAT WHORE! :D

Love you guys!

post moar about your lives soon~~

I'm outt!

I guess the blog is coming back up to life~

Anyways, I'm glad it is back (: I missed blogging on here~

and

THE NEW HEADER IS SO CUTE I COULD SHIT RAINBOWS AND UNICORNS~!!

LOL :D good job, tea. and yes, annie would definitely be the one to make the soluation explode ahahahah :D 
I LOVE MY FUCKIN HAIR ITS SO CUTE OMG DIES.

it's super adorable and i changed my poupee thing :))

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MY FUCKING TICKETS CAME AND THEY ARE LOVELY AND GORGEOUS SLKDJGSKJ. 
I AM SO FUCKING EXCITED GUYS THERE'S ONLY 8 DAYS LEFT LSJDSIJHLIW$YJ.

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Hmmm i don't have a deep story like Tea to post XD But I do have pictures to post of random crap 8DDDDDD

ALSO I AM SO EXCITE FOR THIS WEEKEND OMG SHITTING BRICKS.

So many things to do~~~ Koreatown...photoshoot....<3

YES I AM GOING TO FUCKING BUY THE LUCIFER ALBUM IN KTOWN I don't even care anymore wtf.

and believe it or not, this is the first kpop album i will purchase.
Like literally the first one O_o
Of course i've always wanted to buy a suju or big bang one,
i just never felt the compelling force to buy it as strongly as Lucifer~

I have a secret. 
I REALLY DISLIKED SHINEE IN THE BEGINNING.
yup, that's my super scandalous secrettttt >____>
I don't know why,
but i just remember that...
I couldn't understand WHY IN THE WORLD
everyone was soooo obsessed with SHINee.
My old Lj friends would probably remember the days
when i tried really hard to get into them but i just couldn't.
I thought they all looked like clones of each other and their
music was not appealing to me and i didn't even like jonghyun's voice.
;__________________;
thinking about it now makes me sad on how much awesomeness
i missed out on.
It's really ironic, honestly.
Like i really could not get into their music back then, but when i listen
to their old music now, i find that i love it really much ;____;
Anyways, I still have nooo idea what happened
and how come one day i just suddenly turned 360 degrees around the other way
and fell head over heels in love with SHINee.
Now they are everything to me.
and they have taken over my heart.
I can't remember the last time i was this obsessed with a kpop band...
probably 3 years ago when i got into Suju at first.
Now i find them so lovely, perfect, gorgeous, talented, amazing, and precious.
I love them so much and they mean so much to me
I need this album in my life right now and...
I want to support SHINee ... <3
Taemin has become my ultimate bias standing beside Heechul and TOP
and i've barely grown to like him this much in a month.
I still can't understand what happened to me or why I suddenly
fell in love with SHINee and Taemin the precious Maknae,
But they've changed my life in the short time of a couple months
and I never want to go back.

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so i bought super cute shit for school shit and idk it makes me happy to have cute shit at school cuz it makes me more motivated XDD
 





MY NEW FUCKIN PLANNERYEAH THATS RIGHT. i bought tons of korean stickers and just decorate the hell out of this when i'm bored XD see that little rabbit/dog on there going *___* ? Well thats matched up with  the smtown thing on my calendar and IT TOTALLY FITS WHAT MY REACTION IS XD


oh i bought cute keychain shit for my phone too~ and  i put taemin's pic and geun suk's on there :DDDDD



I just have one thing to kind of rant about..... is Lolly(check glossary)...... :/// so idk what the hell is going on with her she keeps on hanging out with that new friend of hers named CP (glossary again) and whenever we go ANYWHERE to try to hang out with lolly, CP is ALWAYS  fucking there. like seriously? I really can't take that much. So for like the fifth time now, we were trying to hang out with Lolly and CP is there again.. I have no problem against CP cuz she seems nice and all...but like she's taking away my best friend and I don't like it one bit. When we went shopping the other day, all Lolly did was hang out with CP and just kept walking off with her..and she didnt even talk to me or like SHOP with me or anything...WTF is going on. And maybe Lolly is forced to hang out with her since her dad is dating CP's mom but that still doesnt explain why this entire week CP's been sleeping at Lolly's house.. LIKE SERIOUSLY, what in the actual fuck? I just feel so angry cuz she just like waltzed into her life and like took her away from me and now i can't even hang out with my best friend without her being there. They need to figure their shit out cuz i'm only so patient -___- I mean, is some random chick you know for a few months more important than your best friend you've known for 6 years? JUST FEEL LIKE ITS UNFAIR and i feel replaced ... ;______; basically last night was open mic night again in Long beach and i always go with lin but because i heard that CP and Lolly were both going together again, I just  completely felt like not going anymore. I can see it alrdy... I would have gone there and been totally alone because they (lolly and CP) would just talk and  Lin invited Lei again which makes me more angry and then lin would just talk to him and I'd be a fucking loner and WTF is going on jesus christ ://  I really don't know if i should just confront Lolly and be like can we just hang out with you for one day without her tagging along? Or maybe she will tell me CP's her best friend now and she doesn't even care about us anymore. Well that's fine too, she just needs to tell us or something and be fucking straightforward cause i hate people who are wishy-washy. and CP BETTER FUCKING NOT BE GOING TO THE PHOTOSHOOT ON SUNDAY I FUCKING SWEAR TO GOD I WILL CUT A BITCH :| *phew* Feel better now after letting it all out >> ~~   yay enough angry rambling! excited for the weekend and I will talk to you guys later~ :D

(we need more gifs like these AHAHHAH XD)