being an adult

is a tough life.
Bills, rent, werking two jobs.  but I am relatively happy. My job stresses me out a lot though, I cried today at work.. my bosses are kind of psychopaths.  There are times when I want to just walk out, and times when I think: hey -this ain't so bad.  It fluctuates a lot :/  I'll just stay here until I can't stand it anymore.

Right now, I have a lot more responsibilities... but taking them one day at a time.
And I'm still going out and enjoying myself.  And of course the love life is going pretty well so there's that.

Doing freelance is a lot of fun too, although it feels like I'm really working two jobs and takes a lot out of me when I have busy days..it's okay though! I'm going to stick with the day job for now, and do freelance on the side until they take me on board full time!  If I crack at the day job, I'll just leave, take it easy, and just do freelance. I have some risk-taking room since I'm still living at home currently.

How is everyone's adult lives going?
I know the struggle is seriously real.

But I think we can do it.

Just try your best, and try to enjoy the journey along the way.

The most important thing is being happy while you're on your journey!

If you don't have happiness, then money means nothing!  I'd rather become a beach bum on an island than be miserable :)


Let's start posting again if possible

I guess the blog is coming back up to life~

Anyways, I'm glad it is back (: I missed blogging on here~

and

THE NEW HEADER IS SO CUTE I COULD SHIT RAINBOWS AND UNICORNS~!!

LOL :D good job, tea. and yes, annie would definitely be the one to make the soluation explode ahahahah :D 
I LOVE MY FUCKIN HAIR ITS SO CUTE OMG DIES.

it's super adorable and i changed my poupee thing :))

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MY FUCKING TICKETS CAME AND THEY ARE LOVELY AND GORGEOUS SLKDJGSKJ. 
I AM SO FUCKING EXCITED GUYS THERE'S ONLY 8 DAYS LEFT LSJDSIJHLIW$YJ.

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Hmmm i don't have a deep story like Tea to post XD But I do have pictures to post of random crap 8DDDDDD

ALSO I AM SO EXCITE FOR THIS WEEKEND OMG SHITTING BRICKS.

So many things to do~~~ Koreatown...photoshoot....<3

YES I AM GOING TO FUCKING BUY THE LUCIFER ALBUM IN KTOWN I don't even care anymore wtf.

and believe it or not, this is the first kpop album i will purchase.
Like literally the first one O_o
Of course i've always wanted to buy a suju or big bang one,
i just never felt the compelling force to buy it as strongly as Lucifer~

I have a secret. 
I REALLY DISLIKED SHINEE IN THE BEGINNING.
yup, that's my super scandalous secrettttt >____>
I don't know why,
but i just remember that...
I couldn't understand WHY IN THE WORLD
everyone was soooo obsessed with SHINee.
My old Lj friends would probably remember the days
when i tried really hard to get into them but i just couldn't.
I thought they all looked like clones of each other and their
music was not appealing to me and i didn't even like jonghyun's voice.
;__________________;
thinking about it now makes me sad on how much awesomeness
i missed out on.
It's really ironic, honestly.
Like i really could not get into their music back then, but when i listen
to their old music now, i find that i love it really much ;____;
Anyways, I still have nooo idea what happened
and how come one day i just suddenly turned 360 degrees around the other way
and fell head over heels in love with SHINee.
Now they are everything to me.
and they have taken over my heart.
I can't remember the last time i was this obsessed with a kpop band...
probably 3 years ago when i got into Suju at first.
Now i find them so lovely, perfect, gorgeous, talented, amazing, and precious.
I love them so much and they mean so much to me
I need this album in my life right now and...
I want to support SHINee ... <3
Taemin has become my ultimate bias standing beside Heechul and TOP
and i've barely grown to like him this much in a month.
I still can't understand what happened to me or why I suddenly
fell in love with SHINee and Taemin the precious Maknae,
But they've changed my life in the short time of a couple months
and I never want to go back.

;______________________;


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so i bought super cute shit for school shit and idk it makes me happy to have cute shit at school cuz it makes me more motivated XDD
 





MY NEW FUCKIN PLANNERYEAH THATS RIGHT. i bought tons of korean stickers and just decorate the hell out of this when i'm bored XD see that little rabbit/dog on there going *___* ? Well thats matched up with  the smtown thing on my calendar and IT TOTALLY FITS WHAT MY REACTION IS XD


oh i bought cute keychain shit for my phone too~ and  i put taemin's pic and geun suk's on there :DDDDD



I just have one thing to kind of rant about..... is Lolly(check glossary)...... :/// so idk what the hell is going on with her she keeps on hanging out with that new friend of hers named CP (glossary again) and whenever we go ANYWHERE to try to hang out with lolly, CP is ALWAYS  fucking there. like seriously? I really can't take that much. So for like the fifth time now, we were trying to hang out with Lolly and CP is there again.. I have no problem against CP cuz she seems nice and all...but like she's taking away my best friend and I don't like it one bit. When we went shopping the other day, all Lolly did was hang out with CP and just kept walking off with her..and she didnt even talk to me or like SHOP with me or anything...WTF is going on. And maybe Lolly is forced to hang out with her since her dad is dating CP's mom but that still doesnt explain why this entire week CP's been sleeping at Lolly's house.. LIKE SERIOUSLY, what in the actual fuck? I just feel so angry cuz she just like waltzed into her life and like took her away from me and now i can't even hang out with my best friend without her being there. They need to figure their shit out cuz i'm only so patient -___- I mean, is some random chick you know for a few months more important than your best friend you've known for 6 years? JUST FEEL LIKE ITS UNFAIR and i feel replaced ... ;______; basically last night was open mic night again in Long beach and i always go with lin but because i heard that CP and Lolly were both going together again, I just  completely felt like not going anymore. I can see it alrdy... I would have gone there and been totally alone because they (lolly and CP) would just talk and  Lin invited Lei again which makes me more angry and then lin would just talk to him and I'd be a fucking loner and WTF is going on jesus christ ://  I really don't know if i should just confront Lolly and be like can we just hang out with you for one day without her tagging along? Or maybe she will tell me CP's her best friend now and she doesn't even care about us anymore. Well that's fine too, she just needs to tell us or something and be fucking straightforward cause i hate people who are wishy-washy. and CP BETTER FUCKING NOT BE GOING TO THE PHOTOSHOOT ON SUNDAY I FUCKING SWEAR TO GOD I WILL CUT A BITCH :| *phew* Feel better now after letting it all out >> ~~   yay enough angry rambling! excited for the weekend and I will talk to you guys later~ :D

(we need more gifs like these AHAHHAH XD)

Kya~

Such a cute header!~

So, like, I've been MIA because I've been way to sad to post. I can't really find anything to say.

Thursday was my mother's birthday and my mum and bro totally flipped on each other. They were arguing and on the ride home, my brother was freaking screaming his head off at her. He was saying stuff about how she always bullshits and bluffs and really doesn't know anything when she always acts and says she does. And then he was screaming at her, telling her that he remember every single moment of the day she kicked him out. And then he was like, "You kicked me and Ben out, and now what? She's next?!" And then yeah. =/ Totally miserable night. I cried until 2am over my math homework. =-="

What else, what else?

I'm working at Tet Fest on Saturday and Sunday until 6pm, so drop by, guys! We could hang out after on Saturday or something.

It kinda somewhat sorta sucks that Tet's on Valentine's Day this year. :| "Spring of Love" is this year's Tet Fest theme and it's kinda depressing. =w=" At least we have no school the next day! :D We should totally hang. Unless Cafe's busy with her lurverboy. >O

I don't know what to do about Banana. ;-; It's like he wants to see me every weekend or something but then he totally acts aloof at school. I hate him whenever he's around band but on the weekends when we hang or something, he's just the same dork that I fell for. >_<

Oh, so I made a formspring because I told my friend I'd make one if she promised to answer in Pastalia (random language thing) on hers. So I did, and CSG is almost the only one asking creepo questions on it. SUCH A FUCKING CREEEEEEEP. So now I have no idea what to do. He freaking stalks me on my blog and everywhere. @_@" T_T"

So anyways, that's how I'm rolling right now. ._."