Updates on me~!

Cafeclouds here~~

So i've been driving to school~ its pretty chill i guess. i get to take my time in the morning and stuff >>

Ughhhh, i seriously have SMTOWN withdrawal symptoms guys...its pretty bad... like i get all depressed over it for no reason lol TAT i just keep wishing i could go back in time and be there again. i miss them so much.

Oh my god T___T

Taemin, SHINee, suju...everyone.. 

i know it might just seem like a fandom/obsession/phase to you guys,

but it means so much more to me.

Yeah, i think they're really gorgeous and they sing amazingly and stuff like that, but for me it kind of goes beyond that.

To be honest, they are sometimes the real reason i still wake up in the morning.

I know it might sound weird...but kpop idols ... they are amazing to me.

For now its SHINee and Super Junior that inspire me the most.

They are my inspiration for living and for going on everyday, no matter how hard it is because i know they all work themselves to death and still look amazing on stage.

I can see Taemin's eyebags getting darker everyday and I can hear jonghyun's voice getting more and more strained with every Lucifer performance, but I know they worked so fucking hard to reach their dreams ... and are still working their butts off.

and that inspires me so much.

Did you know Taemin gets bullied in school.

YEah, thats right, 

he's a fucking pop idol, and he juggles working, attending meets, singing on stage at concerts, goes to variety shows, radio shows, photoshoots, a nameless bunch of other CRAP and still has to go to fucking school and to top it off he gets BULLIED.

girls won't ever leave him alone and are always pestering him/stalking him/won't let him get past to go to class....and other kids make fun of him, call him names, and even throw things at him

I want to fucking kill them all and rip their faces off .... but it seriously brings tears to my eyes that he is so strong to keep moving on and still working hard....

I just hope he doesn't like get too affected by the bullying that he's one of those k-celebs who suicide..

omg *knock on wood!!!!*

Just kidding, i know Taemin is a happy little kid and he'll never do that (:

I want to be like them -- strong and successful and happy but hardworking at the same time,

Did you know like 5 members of Super junior almost got killed in a car crash like a couple years ago?

they were on their way back from one of the member's father's FUNERAL. and got in a car crash where they were almost killed.

They all broke a bunch of bones and were hospitalized for a long time.

The other members took care of them and they still kept working hard.

That just breaks my heart that they try so hard all the time and they work together to care for each other and i so wish i could have that so....

They inspire and sometimes are the only reason i even care to keep going on in this life.

And since i met them -- in PERSON in front of me, sweat, blood, flesh, tears, the real deal ;;; everything just hasn't been the same.

I wish i could see them again.

It just means so much to me.

*sigh* I really miss SMTOWN.

I miss Taemin ):

 he was so fucking beautiful and perfect....:/

And this might be kind of like pathetic to you guys...

but when lei broke up with me, i felt like i got over it right away (well not the first day, but after that and on), and i acted like it too, 

but i think i actually had really acute depression and I didn't even know it.

You wanna know who got me out of it and from hurting myself?

Big Bang.

Yeah.

No offense, i'm not saying you guys didn't help me or anything, it's just that you guys didn't even KNOW i was depressed and like emo lol... hell, ::::I::::: didn't even know so its fine ..

but i'm just saying that....

I discovered big bang and they saved me.

so they just all mean a lot to me T__T

For bitches who suck and didn't read/comment on my SMTOWN fan account...better do so now (:

http://pedonoona.blogspot.com/

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OMG THIS SHIT MAKES MY LIFE WORTH LIVING AHHAHAHA SO FUCKING HILARIOUS AND CUTE and FUNNNN!!!!!

http://www.mediafire.com/?tlv3d9339aa5b

Download the SHINee ones on the second page (:

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Ummm i think livejournal totally died, guys lol @_@ Ummm like i think all my lj friends totally went AWOL and MIA O-o Umm so i'm just gonna be posting on here a lot more XD LUCKY FOR YOU guys -- you get all my pointless spam now...even if it has to do with a bunch of kpop crap. i expect you to read it too hahaha :DD BECAUSE YOU ALL LOVE ME, BITCHES.

D:<

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SO I'm applying to Cal State Long Beach on the FIRST DAY OF OCTOBER since thats the day they are staring to accept applications @____@ I hope i get in lol @___@ just a heads up for you guys, you should check the colleges' sites that you might wanna attend and check out the application dates for them before its too late!!! Good luck (: Lets all get into the schools we want~! (:

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MIDORI, DO. NOT. WATCH. TOO. MANY. FANCAMS. OF. SMTOWN.

it will make you forget the feeling of being there faster and then you will get really bad withdrawal lol ~_~

it happened to my friend T__T

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So tell me how was your first and second week of senior year??

Mine was okay i guess...kind of strange..

but i feel like i have so much more freedom of expression...I just act like however i want/do what i want...and i dress/do my hair how i want and i really don't care what people say lol.

I bring around a bookbag to put my binder/books in and i guess it makes me look really asian or something lol but i really don't care.

I just find that i really DO NOT CARE @_@

SENIORITIS IS COMING ALREADY AHAHAHHAHA

I wore my hair all korean today with a little ponytail on top of my head today with a little bow and i THINK IT WAS SUPER CUTE and fuck bitches who didn't like it.

FUCK BITCHES who didnt like my pedonoona shirt too . they can suck my dick.

LOL :D

And all my folders/notebooks/eVERYTHING is pimped out with kpop stuff and i kind of don't give a rat's ass if people think i'm too obsessed/weird either cuz taemin's face everywhere makes me really fucking happy you have no idea<3

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Anything new to look forward to, guys?

WE have Teatime's and Kimlink's birthdays coming up soon and what are we planning for halloween?

We definitely gotta get together for Halloween ((:

Ummmm what else is coming up?? >>;;

Any other big events? 

I feel like so pointless after SMTOWN like i have no other big exciting things to look forward to T^T

I will try to think of more things lol ... to keep me going ~ and not give up on school lol @_@

I need to sleep now...its 9:30PM lol. i wake up at 5:20AM though so i gotta sleep now if i wanna be able to wake up tomorrow ><

I need Teatime to finish her post!! THAT WHORE! :D

Love you guys!

post moar about your lives soon~~

I'm outt!

Mall Shopping Yesterday

I was shopping at the mall yesterday with panda in macy's cuz there was a biiiig sale and he wanted me to help him pick out clothes~

but then at like 5:40 he had to leave since he was going to class and his mom was the one who drove me there but i didnt want to make him later by taking me home so i just stayed at the mall and i called my mom to pick me up later~

Anyways so i was running around shopping by myself for a present for my friend's birthday, right?

And then i was waiting outside in target for my mom to come but she was taking toooo long so i started to head back into the mall and i went into Forever21 to check out some stuff.

Then i was looking at some clothes and this girl comes up to me and says

"Hey are you a lolita?"

and i was like :DDDD "Yeah!"

And she was like "oh its so nice to see another lolita around here

me: Yeah i never see Lolitas around this area

Her: are you on livejournal?

Me: yeah i am! I'm on EGL (its the main community for lolitas)

and she started telling me about how she was on the community for LA and how they do meetups on there~

like they had a meetup a while ago to go see alice in wonderland

and i was like ":DD THATS SO COOL"

so she was like "yeah me and my friends sometimes get together to do meetups"

and i was like "thats so awesome (:"

and she said "So yup! Just a random hello!"

So i waved to her and left the store lol

SO COOL THAT I MET A FELLOW LOLITA THOUGHHHH!

I was wearing the handmade skirt and blouse that i made too ^_^ and a big giant bow that matches the skirt...

and i was wearing my goth loli pink boots too XDD

So that just pretty much made my day..

then i found the commuunity (the LA one) that she was talking about and i started looking at the old posts and i found the one where they did the alice in wonderland meetup and there was pictures posted on there ! 

So i looked at the pics and there she was! AHA~ so awesome ^___^

she's the one in the middle in the yellow dress~~

she seemed really nice and since i already ran into her, i might go to a meetup soon ^^;;

YAAYYY for fellow lolis ahah~ <3 you should go with me, midori in your new dream dress ! XD

BTW;

WHY DOESN'T ANYONE ELSE POST ON HERE ANYMORE!!? )))))))))))):

Hana Yori Dango

this is lame ))):

So i started watching Hana Yori Dango (the Japanese version of Boys over Flowers)

and lskfjhlijrhrh...

i am totally biased towards the korean version ;___; i'm not even enjoying hana yori dango that much cuz i miss the other characters too much lol and it keeps reminding me of them, but yeah )):

slfjkhlisfhsrh.  watching this new version just makes me miss the other one and want to rewatch it lol.

here's the reasons why i like korean version more:

*the 4 main guy actors are hotttter (:

*the girl acts really cute and i just miss her face ):

*the plot is more laid out, and this one seems rushed

*acting is somewhat better

SDG:SOJK:IOWYJWH.

I MISSSSSSS LEE MIN HO! <--click :D

booooooooooooo ):

i want to finish this one but... i keep missing the other one XD; i hate this lol!
@_@

anyways, SO OTHER PPL SHOULD POST TOO YOU KNOW ? (:

 

Valentine's Day Weekend and Tet weekend (:

*~TET FESTIVAL~*

was totally bullshit -_-; man ,it was such a waste of money && time.

and me and midori didnt even get in for free cuz of fucking the time thing.

it was only ao dai from 10-1pm :/ sooooo lame!

the mostly only fun part was when me and midori went to buy so much food XD

and then the other fun part was sitting in the random hut with midori and panda 

while i waved to everyone who walked by and looked in the hut 

and sometimes i would yell "HIIII!" if they didnt wave back

and if they look at me like "O_O" or if they say "do i know you?"

then i said "WHAT?! YOU DON'T REMEMBER ME?! >("

AAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA.

i am so funny (:

click the title to READ MOREE!!!
 

Updates~

New Poupee items, my dears~! ^_^;

it's celebrity shop valentine's day items.

i think they look pretty SHITTY XD

they're not that cute at all and ... COSTS WAAY TOO MUCH! D:

i only like about 2 items...and i don't really want them either cuz theyre like super expensive Dx

and also, you can't resell them in the future cuz theyre red items ):

boooo~!

anyways, i think i'll continue to wait for the real V-day event before buying anything ^^;

@TeaTime:

dude, u should make the new layout for february now~! D:

chop, chop! :D

alright , i gtg~ ttyl guys...

and tmrw's friday!!! YAAAYYYY!

happy friday~ <3