Thursday, January 28, 2010

Day 2 of Finals

Too Sunny For a Bad Day.....
Period 2, Midori and I talked the whole time. The large amount of food for the party was disgusting. I'm so glad I didn't participate. I kept staring at Minty/Silk. I couldn't help it. I guess
I started thinking about it too much. Lmao....
Then we had lunch. I went with Annie to do corrections on her test for her Math class (which is my old math class from sophomore year btw). So i got to say 'Hi' to her. I told her about my summer school idea and she told me College Algebra will most likely not count as Trig or Algebra 2.
I'm still in shock . . . .
After that, Annie bought me ice cream. She bought me the last orange and she got a chocolate short cake (?). It was chocolaty.
4th period, I had a presentation for my 8x10 photo. It was a close up details of the tree. It was a good picture. I really liked it. He wrote on the back of my photo...I thought it read 20yz. Then I looked at my other friend's that had 19 B. I'm guessing it was 20A.
After school, I learned my group got 56/85. . . . Uhm...I'm not really sure what to say, but...holy f. I'm going to get dropped out of a class I've been trying so hard in. I'm very...very upset. Also tomorrow is my viet final and geometry final. After the finals I have to go back to my viet class to make up a writing test. Dear god let me do well.

I don't think I'll be able to see Toast tomorrow. I really want to cry. I need a big affectionate hug or I'm going to be overwhelmed. Maybe that's why I keep looking at Minty...Stupid toast. Stupid everything. I feel like I'm going insane. What should I do... My heart is wavering...I guess I'm insecure the fact that he's going back to Marina and I'll see him less often.
This isn't fair. Well...nothing is fair..
He didn't even call me yesterday or last night.
If only Toast was reading this, but either way.
Thanks toast; I feel left behind sometimes even when you focus on your school work too...I'm not sure why.. Sometimes you talk to everyone else, but me (Sorry for always wanting your attention). Sorry about Sunday that I couldn't come because of my driving lessons, but you didn't even im/text/call me to see what I was up to...well that's stupid actually because you never call me unless I asked you too. I feel so stubborn and useless and I hate clinging on things like this. I just hate it .... I feel so lonely...
he really isn't boyfriend material.
I wish he called me sometimes....
I'm gonna call him tonight. Maybe it'll make my stress drop.

My mom keep nagging me too which is like +20 to stress.

1 comment:

Ace said...

I hope you two will makeup soon and everything will be okay ;___;
i really hate when my friends are sad ):

and omg the final thing that you failed sounds like horrible ;___;
that just reaaalllyy sucks Dx

i wish you'd just CALL him and tell him all of the things you wrote on here to him...he rly needs to know that..and you might think you're asking too much of him by wanting his attention, but thats not true because if he's your bf and he loves you, he should have to want to listen to whatever you want/need to say D;
im serious!!! DO IT!